Unafraid of owning the bitch that lives within me⚡️

I live in gratitude.

I have the ability to see my own personal hardship in terms of what can I learn here.

I see challenges as an opportunity for growth.

My deep disdain for feeling victimized leads me to quickly shift into my personal power.

I’ve always considered this to be a super power; it has allowed me to navigate my life my business in a way that has kept me sane. 

I had a perspective shift about this skill-set the other day. I started to question my abundance mindset—perhaps it’s from getting older and having less patience, or perhaps I’m tired of making shit into gold.

I began questioning whether it really serves me or if it actually serves a structure that doesn’t want me (women) to feel fully empowered.

I realize the part of me that is so darn grateful is also the part of me that doesn’t want to ask for more. It’s the part of me that doesn’t want to rock the boat, the part of me that doesn’t want to be seen as difficult or needy... or as the dreaded "B word" we are taught is so bad.

I was then reminded of my friend Meredith Brooks and a song called Bitch that she wrote during a women's circle she led many years ago. It was my first women's circle, and I was one of the first people to hear that song.

I’m a bitch 
I’m a lover
I’m a child 
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner 
I’m a saint 
I will not be ashamed.

I remember how powerful I felt singing that song. I remember thinking, yes, yes.

Now, 20+ years later, I feel it so much more .

I want to bust down the walls of patriarchy, the systems that disempower us women and lead us to think that our value is shallow and based on the male gaze.

I’m tired of being grateful for inappropriate and demeaning behavior.

I’m tired of watching a world that is trying to market this new movement of equality, but only when it looks good and services the same structures that built it in the first place .

So gratefully today I lay down my superficial gratitude practice and I say yes to being comfortable in the in-between.
I say yes to living within my own value.

MY VALUE LIES WITHIN ME 
AND SO DOES YOURS.


I believe full-heartedly that the quality of my life (and your life) is based on the value we have within us.

Today I am willing to live in the messy in-between.
I am open to letting go of old ways of being and I am open to seeing what comes next.
My gratitude will live in the real true bits—
In the breaths that I take,
In the friends and family that I love and who love me.

I will value that which deserves my attention.
I will bow to the tough, the messy, and the beautiful. 
I will step into my power and be brave to ask for more.

Today I will be unafraid of owning the bitch that lives within me.

Xxxx,
Carrie-Anne