Annapurna Woman: Pixie Lighthorse
How do you start your day?
I wake up each morning the same way: trying to remember my dreams, so that I know what my depths are saying, and what they need... or what trouble they might cause me today! I have to be one step ahead sometimes. I ask myself what I will need to feel successful during the day, and sometimes I know within a few minutes of waking that I'll need a nap! I also drink lemon, ginger put through a garlic press and honey in hot water each morning. It flushes out everything and I feel clear and ready for the day. I walk around praying a lot and talking out loud, while alerting random listeners that I'm just finding my way. I try to catch the sunrise every day through my kitchen or bathroom window, and hold in my heart that it's giving me another chance to take good care.
What do you do when you are overwhelmed or stressed?
Protect the little ones by not spilling it out onto them. I try to stop what I'm doing and breathe through my thoughts. I can typically dismantle them by disengaging my mind and opening up my heart.
What gives you the feeling of true bliss within?
Laying down on the ground. Double bliss if my children are with me. Shirtsleeves weather. Having a houseful of laughing kids, and relaxed parents. Watching a painting come to life. Gathering in circle with wild women of the earth.
What are you currently reading?
Oh! So many things to read. On my bedside are Anam Cara by John O'Donohue, The Spell of the Sensuous and Becoming Animal by David Abram, and Women Who Run With the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estés. Others may rotate in and out, but these are always present.
What are you listening to right now?
Patty Griffin and Gillian Welch. For records, that means 1000 Kisses, The Harrow & The Harvest, Time (The Revelator). If I had to I think I could listen to Chief and Elvis Presley Blues and be completely happy. Oh, and Townes Van Zandt. Woody Guthrie. Gritty, salty, people music. Also Alela Diane and Chelsea LaBate. Now I can't stop! Don't get me started on audiobooks...
What is your go-to simple recipe?
This is my favorite: Nine minute soft-boiled eggs (whites totally done) over wilted kale with red onion. Comfort food. I also never met a soup I didn't like. I can make one out of just about any ingredients I have onhand as long as I have an onion and some butter to start with. I think my favorite recipes are the ones which I don't have to make an extra trip to the market for.
What are some simple things you do for self-care?
Mmmm. Self-care. I sleep. As much as possible. I try never to go to sleep with the thought that I didn't get enough done, and I try to wake up thinking that I got enough rest. I'd never feel satisfied if I did the opposite. I do an intensive cleanse a few times a year: no alcohol, caffeine, sugar, flour or dairy. Walk my property. Snuggle and pray with my two children every single night. Pray together with my man every night. It's so intimate and bonding. Many things on the heart come forth in prayer which would not otherwise. Prayer in the presence of others is very connective. I'm also honoring the hermit I've become by realizing I'm an introvert masquerading as an extrovert. I restore my energy in solitude: making altars, reading, sitting still, making fires. That being said, I love loving up my people.
What does nourishment look like to you?
Nourishment looks like pacing myself. I once had a dream where I was careening down a snowy driveway on a grade-school chair which gave way into an icy glacier. It reminded me of the recent time I put myself on skis after 20 years of being off of them. The instructor said, “Let's work on controlling your speed.” Story of my life! I feel nourished when I don't overbook my calendar. I also feel nourished when someone cooks for me. I am totally okay with receiving from others, at long last.
How do you make space for play?
I walk around my ranch holding hands with my lover and my children. We find little bones, tiny flowers, wildlife tracks. It's always an adventure. I also paint on a schedule. It's not what I do for a living anymore, so I really get to have fun with it. Also, anything I do fully present with my children feels like play to me. I try to make time for some kind of session of play every day. If I schedule in what I want to do, I will get to it-it's doable. If I don't plan time to do unproductive things, I fall into a slumber of doing only, which leads to burnout. I have to consciously make time for being, because I'm hardwired as a child of the post-Industrial Revolution generation. They were all about one's value being equal to what one does. Thank goodness we have other choices!
What are some favorite mantras you cling to?
For results: “Know what you need, and ask for what you want.”
For trust: “ My way is being prepared for me.”
For faith: “Spirit didn't carry me this far to drop me.”
For gratitude: I sing a little song my sisterfriend wrote called “I Am So Blessed.”
Please share some words of wisdom you’ve learned as a direct result of soulful and embodied living.
I've learned that I am fully able to live my purpose every day, even if just in little snippets. That my gifts are an offering to the world. That everyone has unique gifts, and the best ones are not monetizable. I've learned that if I listen closely, I can hear the plants and trees whispering their ancient stories. I can hear the animals teaching me by unapologetically going about their lives in ritualistic ways which honor their exact nature. I see the sky kissing the earth with a love which can only be aspired to, and never described in language. I've also learned that I'm a fumbling human who makes mistakes every single day! And that I can live with that.
Pixie Lighthorse is a mother of the world. She practices ritual and ceremony inspired by her indigenous ancestors, with a divine feminine concentration. She aims to inspire women to integrate the ancient and holy within them, and radiate healing across the planet. Visit her on PixieLighthorse.com and connect on Facebook or Instagram. Her book Prayers of Honoring is available here.