Creating a life that is truly yours is no small task.
The dance I've been dancing these past weeks has had this tune: What if I let it all go? What if I let go of all my ideas about how things should be ... who would I be? What kind of mother would I be if I let go of this philosophy, or, sometimes, this opinion? What kind of wife and friend would I be if I let go of my attachment to the woman I think I am? What would I eat if I wasn't worried about this or that?
I love asking myself this question, and every day I get to try it on and find my way.
I love so many philosophies I have uncovered in my life, and some of them are the fuel which gets me through my days—especially the tough ones. However, I am craving deep intimacy. I am craving true authentic relationships and so here I stand, letting it all go.
I want to live my life in freedom, and that includes freedom from the voices in my head that judge—that judge me mostly—but also judge the ones I love. I want to take time to answer a question so I can see where I am with it, in that moment. I want to surprise my kids when I do something they think I would never do. I want my husband to see the parts in me I have lost touch with, but are craving for voice.
Who would I be if I let it all go?
AUTHENTIC. Not perfect.
That's my song. That's my dance.
Who would you be?