I have always kept a journal. A diary held in my hands as a 10 year old girl felt spacious even then. My 10 year old self found freedom in writing about my days and of course the many names I would one day name my daughter. Names like Willow and Ashleigh written over and over again. The feeling I was somehow creating all that I desired by writing it down, doodling around it. My journals have always been my way to get through and process my inner life.
I have journals filled with affirmations and wishes. I have my fears in ink on the many pages—attempting and often dispelling the energy and creating a release. When I became a mother my journals took a new direction. Often they were a grocery list or a few minute sprawl out of my latest revelation or issue I was dealing with.
I use my journals as my own therapist. I use the written word and getting it out to sort through my stuff and to keep on keeping up:::
A few sacred minutes with a pen in my hand and an empty page in front of me can often make the difference in my day.
I randomly opened up an old journal today and here is what I found:::
*Inspired by a book on parenting called Easy to Love Difficult to Discipline by Becky A. Bailey.
Day 1:: I need to become the person I want my children to BE. I need to become a wonderful woman, and in order to do this I need to develop self-control. Self-control is mind control. Being aware of my own thoughts and feelings. Being the director.
Self-control—the piece of mind that comes through the awareness of your thoughts and feelings—must be your first priority as a parent.
1: Power of attention—what I focus on, I get more of.
2: Power of love—see the best in one another.
3: Power of acceptance: this moment is as it is.
4: Power of intention—conflict is an opportunity to teach.
6: Power of free will—the only person I can change is me.
7: Power of unity—focus on connecting...
What I focus on I get more of...