I Will Do Something
by Mandy Steward
Given an evening to ourselves, my husband and I opted to open a bottle of wine and watch a few episodes of Netflix and Marvel’s show Jessica Jones.
But maybe, maybe I should back up and tell you about my North Node first. A friend of mine who knows far more about astrology than I ever will once gifted me a birth chart created by KV of Aquarius Nation. Periodically, my friend would point out different parts of her own birth chart that she was exploring, and it would help me better understand my own. For instance, when I first received it, I didn’t realize I had a sun sign AND a moon sign AND a rising sign. It was very interesting to read about these different facets of me.
One day, my friend was sharing with me about the aspect called the North Node and how in the section of the birth chart that speaks to this, KV had suggested doing further research in the book entitled Astrology for the Soul. The way KV puts it, your North Node is your yellow brick road. I am smitten by anyone that ties my real life into a fictional tale. She was speaking my language. If I am Dorothy following my own yellow brick road to home, I wanna do whatever I can to figure out what that yellow brick road looks like so I can stay on it because as you and I both know, there is no place like home.
I summed up the pages I read in Astrology for the Soul about my North Node by creating a little rainbow colored booklet with the main takeaways. If I had to summarize it even more I would say it is about participating in my living rather than withdrawing from it.
My inclination towards the romantic makes it often difficult to want to engage the “real world.” It is far easier to run and hide from all the ugly than to come on out and play. But I am teaching myself how, rewiring my brain to be able to stay put and use my magic to create the beauty I so desire around me.
This is why, when I watched the first few episodes of Jessica Jones, I became so enthralled with the main character. She was experiencing an intense internal battle, determining whether she would go on the run from a past that was haunting her or turn to face it and fight it head on. She was experiencing the spine-tingling fear of a nightmare she couldn’t wake up from and figuring out if she wanted to stay and use her powers to confront it.
Watching Jessica Jones run at a full sprint away from the ugly in life that hurt her (and still scares her) and then watching her suddenly stop, and turn, and walk back into the fray with a determined soul and a readied posture, it was thrilling, and it rekindled my own flame to do the same.
Her tensions are the same thing my North Node is made of. That is, am I a victim that must run and hide or am I capable of dealing with the “real world” and changing my life?
Last night I received a correspondence letter from a student enrolled in The Magic School. In the letter she told me about a plot twist occurring in her own story and towards the end of her letter she used this phrase, “But now I will do something about it.”
I was so taken by the phrase, I stopped what I was doing and created a piece of secret message art to send to her. This phrase is where the tides turned for me. It is where my life went from passive to active. It is where I got on my own yellow brick road and pointed my ruby slippers (or cowgirl boots) towards the beauty of home.
Who will do something about my living? I will. I will see to it. I will use my powers.
Artist, Author, Teacher
Mandy Steward is an artist, writer, and teacher. She teaches art locally and online and created a correspondence school called TheMagicSchool.us. She blogs regularly at MessyCanvas.com. She also self-publishes a subscription based ‘Zine for artists called the SecretMessageSociety.com. Mandy has written a spiritual memoir called Thrashing About With God: Finding Faith on the Other Side of Everything. She attributes her personal freedom to the process of writing this book.
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